letter from mama

dear baby,

i'm going to miss you in my belly.  i like that i take you anywhere with me... all the time...  i like being able to protect you from all harm while you're in there.  i like being so close to you and feeling you.  i will surely miss your hiccups, kicks and jabs...  but i know that soon, you will be ready to come out into the world.  as much as i like having you in my belly, papa and i can't wait to finally meet you.  we're both so excited!  i think back to when we found out we were having a baby and we both had tears of joy.  we were beyond happy...  when i first heard your heartbeat, i cried from happiness.  i want you to know that you are very wanted, already loved and we will love you forever.

you, me and papa are going to be a family.  it took me 36 years to be ready to start a family.  i wanted to make sure i was emotionally, financially and mentally prepared for a child.  sorry if your friends may tease you about having older parents but we only wanted to be absolutely ready for you.

i keep trying to picture what you will look like.  would you look more like me or papa?  i am hoping you will look like both of us...  but with papa's hair!

i heard breastfeeding is extremely tough.  but i want only what's best for you and will try my hardest to breastfeed for at least a year.  hope we work well together on that.

i know you're really comfortable in there but i will make you comfortable out here too.  i will give you lots of hugs and kisses and keep you warm and safe in my arms.  it's weird that i haven't met you yet but i already love you so much that it's overwhelming.  do you already love me too?

love,
mama